Ideal situations

Somehow not having a laptop anymore makes maintaining my blog incredibly difficult; especially when the other half is constantly on the desktop. I feel very disconnected from the virtual world. When was the last time I signed into MSN? Wait, no, when was the last time I checked my mail?


I'm currently at Ewa's place since I can no longer BEAR to live at home. It's a noisy, impolite and inconsiderate environment, and it's starting to drive me crazy. Yet somehow I can't bear to leave the house too, because everytime I do, there's bound to be a mess when I get home. Check out the difference in ONE day - there's dog pee in the house, the stove which I just cleaned the morning before is once again COVERED with sauce drips and God knows what else, and my couch (which is white, and is WAYYY too much effort to wash) is once again black. Oh, and my new knife is missing. Another knife missing. GAHHHH!!! I swear I'm gonna go crazy either way. Living with or away from them is driving me insane. So for slight peace of mind, I've decided to temporarily move out, so I wouldn't explode at them.


Until now. Since mummy has provided me with a situation which is slightly less than ideal, but that's a sacrifice I'm willing to make. She's offered to loan me the money for rent for the rest of the year, and kick them out. I didn't really feel like taking this option as it would mean that I'd be in debt before I even start my career, but the other options suck even more. I could move in with Ewa, but I'd have to leave Mitsu at home with them where he won't be cared for properly, OR I could just DEAL WITH IT. All three alternatives suck dramatically, but I suppose the first one's the best. At least mummy said I could take the rest of my life to pay her back, which maybe I will do HAHA!


And it's dinner time. I get to trudge in the cold at 1am in the morning to get McDonald's for dinner. Ahhhh.. I like it here. It's peaceful, and happy =) I'm just really far away from uni =/