Rush

An outburst of thoughts quickly before I fold them away somewhere and forget.

I guess I cannot expect anyone else to share the feelings of heartbreak and pity I feel when I leave Mitsu alone at home for an extended period of time. After all, he is mine and I shouldn't expect anyone to care for him as much as I do. I know its wrong of me but yet I can't help feeling disappointed when I realize that nobody is ever as willing as I am.

I think back to the days when people keep asking me to watch their dogs for them and I have never said no, simply because I know how difficult the situation can be. I have never complained or regretted. Yet I somehow feel.. a little bit lonely because when it comes to my turn, I don't quite know who to ask for help.

Saying that as it is would be unfair because Ame HAS helped me with taking care of Mitsu before. Tonight I asked if she could take Mitsu over to her place since he was alone all last night and has had no company today. Yes, it makes me feel really shitty but the deal is we spend weekends at Southbank and I cannot bring Mitsu along. Ame mentioned something about going out on Saturday. My question is "so what?" I've had Sleepy over countless times and we've still gone out. At least my dog doesn't destroy things. Worse come to worse, you could always drop Mitsu back before you go out. Oh wait, I forgot - it's too much trouble, isn't it?

*sigh* ame>if you read this, pls don't be upset. I'm just having a moment to myself. This time tomorrow I probably won't even remember anything I said here so please don't hold it against me. And I do apologize. I may say these cruel things now.. but I promise you that it's all in the moment, and I really don't mean them on a day to day basis.