How does it feel?

I logged in with so much to say and now that I'm here.. The words are all messed up in my head.

How does it feel to know that the things you say or do no longer matter to him? To know that your tears mean nothing and that he can now walk out in the midst of an argument to do something that now means more to him that you do. To look back at the past to know that once upon a time he was never like that. To realize that somewhere between now and then something has changed. To know that nothing you do or have ever done for him is truly appreciated. To understand that whenever it comes to a decision between you or the other, it's always the other. To finally get it in your head that it's always worth sacrificing you. Everything is always worth giving you up. That one year and eight months later, he no longer cares.

What do you do?