the beginning of the end

J: So what is this?

E: *shurgs*

J: No, seriously, let's have a conversation..

E: *whines* I don't like conversations..

J: Why are things so complicated?

E: *silence*

J: What is this? Is this something where u dun actually wanna be with me anymore but you don't want anyone else to be with me? Is that it?

E: Errr.... yeah

J: So what? You want me to be single for the rest of my life?

E: No la.. that would be very selfish of me, right?

J: *silence*


Hahaha.. what does one say to that? So I pushed him everyday to make up his mind. Just once a day; nothing more - "So.. have you made up your mind yet?"
Finally today I was rewarded with a sad look on his face and a "you don't need me to say it, right?"

Man.. the last time I heard that line in the same context was when I was in Year 9 or so. Bloody hell. At least this time I took it with a smile on my face. As opposed to the rage boiling inside my chest and the desire to yell "Get the !@#$ out of my house~!!" I'm being nice, and I don't know why. But I'll continue to be nice. And I'll never know why.

Now Ame is gone and I'm back to being alone in this ever-crowded house. I like the crowd. It stops my engulfment. The only thing I don't like about it is when the crowd leaves and I'm left behind to deal with the emptiness. Hurry back, people. Hurry back!