Omigod...Just visited the site that Jerilyn asked ppl to visit. http://www.geocities.com/cabucojuice/sad.htm. Dammit such a sad story... Music was sad too...from final fantasy X. *sob*~ tears in my eyes at the end... Honest~!! Argh...can't stand it..made me feel so emotional. I'll probably become sad everytime I think about it. =~(

Anyways, let's try moving on to a not so sad topic. Interschool Aths was alright. I was sitting in the sun for the first half of the day. Ended up with a major headache AND losing my voice AGAIN~!! Well, not entirely but my voice is dodgier than it was. Not all gone but close. At least I can still talk. Hah I love my voice. Can't get enough of it since I lost it when I got sick. Hehehe...kinda vain, I know but u gotta appreciate the things u have, right? =P Nah, I'm just kidding... I can hear Jess going ,"Yeah right..."

I asked Steph to help me with my site already... She said she'd try to come online tonight. But I dun think she could. I tried calling her house earlier but there was no answer. Maybe out for dinner? Who knows.. Anyway, I guess it can wait. It's just that the layout of this current page is annoying the hell out of me. It's just so plain and uninteresting. But I'm not exactly the smartest computer person alive so I guess I can't be picky. Even starting this site was kinda good for me so better be thankful that I KNOW how to start it. Hehehhe...

Oh yeah...important item of the day. Happened first thing this morning. I got up late (8.00; I'm meant to get up at 7) this morning cos my eyes were an hour behind time. Oh let's face it; I read the clock wrong. My mum woke me up at 7.40am but I saw 6.40am and was wondering why she was waking me up so blardee early in the morning. Anyway when I realized that it was 8 i jumped straught out of bed n ran to get ready. Went for breakfast and made a joking comment to my mum about me waking up late. She got all cranky with me but I didn't mention it then. Since I wasn't gonna be able to order lunch today, I asked my mum if she had any lunch for me. Know what her reply was? "Why would u assume that I'd know that I have to make lunch for u today?!?!?" And she did this in a very indecent tone. Che> u know what I mean. Now it's my turn to get annoyed and so I was like," woah, did u n Jim(my stepdad) have a fight or something this morning? I mean, c'mon all i did was make a joke n ask u a question n mind u, i did all this quite nicely. Wasn't rude about it or anything." And she says, "NO I DIDN'T HAVE A FIGHT WITH JIM! I'M JUST SO FED-UP OF YOU BEING SO UNGRATEFUL ABOUT THE THINGS THAT I DO FOR YOU!!!!" That leaves me with a "???" but oh well...Probably PMSing or going through menopause. Really annoying. Well, only a year to go and then THAT'S IT~!! Can't wait to leave. Hate it here. Must go as soon as I can. Otherwise things could go bad. *sigh~*

jenn: i know mag/gwen half my life. my mom "left" when i was 13, my beginnign of my adolescent life. of coz i turned to my frds for support. obviously, i dun turn to my dad! i nv stayed with him til i was 15! i been thr up n down w these 2 gals, naturally i turned to them. even tho we are far away, the distance dont really bother us, when there's net, phone, letters and all. n i state that statement coz overall, it happened in sch n mag, gwen n mi usually hang out together, same case s j, meli n i. same scenario. so of coz i so wished they were in my sch, or i was w them again. it's a thought, a wish. yea. i do appreciate u, but it's juz hard tryin got start all over again, diggin up things deep within and make a close f/ship. not @ this point, where i'm so busy n i cant even think of frds, except those in sg. we juz been thr so much, it's like one look on my side, and they know wad's wrong. it's a bond that we made over 5-6 yrs. so dun compare urself, coz every1 is different. i dont mean to blog it publicly, but i dunno where to blog it. so yea. here. sorry.
That was from jerilyn. We were talking about frenships n confiding in each other. There was once when she was calling out in rage about never having someone to confide in. So I said that I'd always be there for her n it's whether she chooses to call out to me or not. A few days later she had a fight with her mum n she said,"where the hell r u maggy/gwen?" and i said,"see what i mean?" so that was her response. I can kinda understand la cos that's sort of how I feel here as well. There are times when I wish that I had someone to confide in...and the funny thing is that there are lots of ppl around for me to confide in.. It's whether I choose to do so or not. But it's always easier to confide in someone who's had history with u; someone u've known your entire life or most of it anyway. I would always rather confide in Elaine n Tera than Jess or Angie. It's sort of understandable cos I've only known Jess for 2.5 years..and I've known Elaine around 7 years oredi. Tera's different. Tera's easy to confide in but there are times when she doesn't understand certain things n that's the way I feel with Jess as well. What I want to confide I don't think she'd understand. She seems too carefree. Our worlds are so different I wonder how we came to be friends. Maybe cos there was no one else?

*sigh* now me being pessimistic again.. I shall stop. My post for today getting kinda long anyway. I still have the music from the story I was reading playing. Maybe that's why kinda emotional at the moment. Alright, I'm gonna stop now before I think up of more problems to make me more depressed....