Okay, post for yesterday (02/10/03):-

Fark. Had the worst nightmare ever. I dreamt that I was going back KL from 17 Dec to 20-sumthing Jan. Argh!! No wait, that wasn't the nightmare. The nightmare was when I woke up n realized that it was all a dream. *sob* wanna cry. *sigh* oh well. A dream is just a dream; a series of scenes in the mind of a sleeping person. Grr... why can't it be the other way round?? One where reality is the dream n my dream is reality. But then life would be too perfect n that's not what life is meant to be about. *sobsobsob* Grrr....no comment whatsoever.

Missed out on wishing Sui Lin farewell. Wanted to do some big fancy sign thing wishing her farewell but fell asleep n didn't get up till 7 thanks to mum. *hyuk* then I received even worse news. Parents say they've decided to rent the apartment in KL out. Which also means it's gonna be all the more harder for me to go back. She even asked me if I have anything important there that I wanna keep. Of course I have important things there!! EVERYTHING THERE IS IMPORTANT!!!! DON'T YOU GET IT?!?!??!?! AND IF I SAY NO, WHAT HAPPENS? YOU'RE GONNA THROW EVERYTHING AWAY JUST LIKE THAT?!??!?! ARE U CRAZY?!?!?!? No I didn't say that...but it was what went thru my head the instant she told me asked me that damn question. Well, at least it's not confirmed yet. Maybe they won't do it in the end. Jim loves his Astro too much to part with it. Arse. *shakes head with frustration*

Anyway, worked from 9-9 to make lots of money. Maybe can help my sis pay for airticket home. Then I can go home... unless of course the apartment is already rented out. Then I have to think of somewhere to stay. Dun relli wanna stay with sis's fren. Was thinking of staying with Elaine but I sincerely doubt she has the space. Would have stayed with Tera but Tera's gone~!!!! Maybe she'll let me stay in her currently empty apartment in Sunway if I'm desperate. That is, of course, if she hasn't rented it out. The world is closing in on me. I can feel it. Just as well I've never been claustrophobic. Or I might be suffering an attack right now. I'm starting to suffocate though. It's a start. Maybe I AM claustrophobic. Yay. Joy.