Fuck. damn pissed. so much to say but dunno where to start. can't find the right words. mum's a bitch. she's doing this on purpose. she's trying to stop me from seeing kl frens. bitch. u've got the issues with kl so what? u can't fucking tell me to not hang out with frens just cos they're from friggin kl, alright? i'm not gonna say all that, "one day u're gonna be sorry" shit cos i know u, u're too thick-skinned to feel sorry about anything. n they call ME cold-hearted. well fuck it all. i give up. my life's all urs. that's what u wanted, didn't u? u just wanna see me so miserable that i have no choice but to listen to u. well u're right. i have no life. i'm urs. treat me however u want. it doesn't matter anymore. can't wait for this lifetime to be over. my dad says i chose to be born to u. i think i was drunk when the people up above asked me to made a decision. or maybe i saw u n thought u'd make a good mum. well, i was terribly mistaken. u're not fit to be a mum. this is my punishment for judging a book by its cover. i know my mistake. next time round, i'm not gonna choose. i'm just gonna say send me to anyone. dun give a fuck anymore. i've been thru the worst there is. ppl always talk about physical abuse shit. i wish u'd hit me all the time instead of inflicting this mental torture on me, cos then at least i'd be able to get away from u. right now i have no proof that u're doing anything to me. ppl are gonna say so what if she doesn't let u have a life? so what if she doesn't let u go back to kl every year? they cannot understand how it is to lose the one very place u belong to. n they dun have someone attempting to take away every chance at happiness they have. fuck u. i know u're going to hell. i'll see u there. i'll drag u so far down in hell, n i hope u feel it for the rest of ur immortal life. may u suffer, n even though i'll be suffering for dragging u down there, i'll enjoy every moment of pain that u go thru.