*hics* over-reaction. now cool down liao feeling so silly. *sighz* oh well... better to have too many emotions rather than none. later ppl call me cold-hearted.. but if u're cold-hearted u wouldn't get hurt but then ppl won't like u.. well u wouldn't notice anyway cos u'd be too cold-hearted. heee.... i always ponder this question.. is it better to see a beggar n feel sorry for him n not do anything about it (eg just walk away) or would it be better to have seen him but didn't feel any sympathy for him whatsoever? i mean, if u felt it but ignored it wouldn't u be so evil? whereas if u're cold-hearted initially no one can blame u for ignoring the beggar cos u honestly didn't feel any pity for him. so who's better than the other?

Anyways, i ponteng skool today. akakkaka... first time in so long. last time had my sis to help me ponteng n in kl so easy to ponteng. but since my sis go melb n left me behind....i never ponteng yet man... today's my first time. hmmph. have to thank gerald for it. he rang the skool n said that my cousin was in a car accident n i gotta go home urgently. hiak. right. so yeah... here i am at home. no need to hand in english essay n sit my GNT test today. yay~!!! but then...that means that i gotta do my GNT test tomorrow..hand in my english essay n do my Bio test as well. aiks. so many things. annoying la.. i mean exams are like sometime next week. the friggin thing starts on my b'day. n i have GNT on that day too. *sigh* shouldn't we be doing revision instead of sitting test after test after test? but then again..i guess tests are a form of revision. that's the only way i'd start studying now cos if it weren't for the tests i wouldn't study. not that i do now anyway. i should probably start. exams so soon oredi. feeling slack.

me gerald angie n unggul kinda sorted things out oredi. it's been a LOOONNNNGGGG weekend. I spent Sunday afternoon in Steph Wong's house writing up a whole year's worth of Chem prac stuff in one day. I barely made the deadline. *hics* slacker. Unggul called me at 7 in the morning to talk about angie etc etc. eesh. i set my alarm for 7.30 cos i wanted to do my work... thought i could make the most of my sleep but then he had to call...disrupt me. hmmph. if i had known that i wouldn't start doing any work till 12 then i might as well have woken up at 1 or something. no diff. anyway things are kinda sorted out. i think there's still tension between me n angie; kinda obvious in skool. but now we make it a point to tease her abt gerald. pretend as if this whole damned thing never happen. she said to me,"Jenn, I relli thought u were gonna slap me or something about this, u know..." n i said to her, "yeah i was gonna slap u when i found out u were telling him about my personal life. in case u dunno, personal also means PRIVATE..n not only was i gonna slap u, i was also gonna strangle n kill u. Hmmph. some fren u are." akkaka... i'm evil. n then later on she said, "Jenn, can i ask u something? Are we meant to be competing with each other?" My response: "I take it we're talking about Gerald. Hah! Who's competing with YOU? Who wanna compete with u anyway. You're the only one in the competition. I'm not fighting for him. Why would I? n anyway, if i wanted to compete against u, u'd never win. =)" AKkaka....n i DID say i was kidding. But Jess who was sitting beside us was laughing her head off. She was amused by the whole thing. I'm glad I made someone happy. AIsh.

Everybody's been talking about travelling recently.. everyone's going somewhere.. now that it's nearing the end of the year. Sui Lin going Melb next feb, gerald going back to singapore for 2 months, but he's going sweden as well... lots of ppl going back to their home countries... Jess is going back to Indo on the 27/ 28th of Nov. Which means that she's missing out on the last week of skool. *sigh*... I'm gonna be alone here for a month. I dun relli wanna go UK. I'm going to London for a wedding. I dun even know whose wedding it is. neither do i care. they're not part of my family n frankly i relli dun wanna go. It's quite funny cos like ever since i came here, I've changed quite a bit. When i was in kl, my attitude used to be like, "Holiday ar? Go London, US, Switzerland etc etc.. Must have espensive stuff. want nice car. Go posh skool." Basically acting like a rich brat la... but now i dun wan all that stuff. i wanna go back to kl.. i wanna study in sri kl. i dowan go holiday in UK, instead I wanna go Indo to visit Tera, Jess n the rest.. I wanna go Singapore to see what Jeri's n Gerald's lives are like... n most of all, I wanna go KL n see my frens n jsut be home. dowan all the expensive stuff anymore. I just want the cheaper stuff. Dun wanna study in St Mary's where the skool fees are like AUD10,000 or something like that. only wanna study in Sri KL which is RM4000 per semester. *sigh* u get my drift la. the thing is...cos everyone's talking about going home... n everyone's stressing about exams n everyone's just so highly strung n depressed... it's also starting to get to me.. Eesh. hate it. i wanna be happy. I shall be happy for the next few days, I promise. n i shall study tonight but no promises. akakkka... =)


Sometimes a little smile is all it takes to make someone feel better