I'm thinking about taking the drastic move n shifting into my own domain. scary... but it's a rather interesting idea. i just dunno whether i have the time to make all the changes etc. at least this only has one page for me to worry about.. *sigh* n then there's also the issue of paying for the hosting. aish. cos i'd have to pay for it myself. well i guess it's alright la but it just means that it can't be something expensive. found one that's only like RM40 per year... but then i gotta do a wire transfer to pay every year...? so troublesome.

feeling nostalgic. lots of things going on. also being super slack. haven't studied at all this weekend. aish. just called Iris on the phone.. seems that she knows an ex-sri klian. hah. who just happens to be the classmate of my ex when i was in std 6. small world indeed. so embarassing. first question she ask was whether i know who fong wai hong is. aiks. yes i know him. the one that i went out with until upsr was over. ouch. akkakaka... what a feeling man. so shy now. dun tell me that's how ppl remember be right...? the one who went out with wai hong... n then she went further to say,"yeah the comp geek." wahhh... no face.. make me even shyer... *blush* hehehehe.. nvm la.. an experience.

right... i have something important to say to a fren of mine. u know who u are.. :
to be honest, i had no idea about what was going on.. maybe i'm not a good friend for not suspecting it, but in all honesty, i really had no idea to what extent the problems were. i mean, i knew there were problems, n there were a few hints n stuff, but i never knew the truth. neither did u tell me about it. well, i guess that's entirely understandable for u not to tell, cos it's not the sort of problem that u tell everyone about. i'm sorry, alright? I really am. i've always thought of myself as being there for u anytime.. i guess i never showed u how much i care for u; that i'd always be there for u, no matter when. i can totally relate to how u feel, cos i'm sort of in the same position. i won't say i feel sorry for u, cos i know u'd hate it. but i feel sad all the same. i also won't say i know how u feel, cos everyone's feelings towards a topic is different.. so all i can say is that i understand. n that i'm really here for u to talk to me. i'd love to be there for u. i'd love to know that i could be the one u choose to lean on. cos u've done it for me a couple of times. dun keep it all in u. i know it's hard.. i do it too. so maybe i can't talk. but know that i mean everything that i say to u. i feel like crying when i read what u wrote.. cos it reminded me of myself.. n i have to urge to hug u when i next see u, but i know i won't bcos i dunno how u'd feel. i always feel as if there's a barrier there cos i only knew of ur prob thru what u wrote n not cos u actually told me. so i wonder, how close am i to u really? do u want to reply on me? should i talk to u and act as if i know what u're talking about? is that what u really want? or would u feel as if i'm pitying u n hate me for it? it's these thoughts that keep me away. maybe that's why u think u can't rely on me - cos even though i know how u're feeling i never actually show u that i care. well i do, n u can cry on me anytime u get sick of ppl crying on u. but beware, i tend to cry when i see others crying. well i guess that's better then. we can be crying together instead. tell me how u feel, alright? i'd really love to know. *hugs* u take care of urself n good luck for the rest of ur exams. thanx for the present too. i'll see u soon. talk to me.