oh good gawd... i honestly cannot see myself adjusting to boarding life.. but then again, i'm already here so i might as well deal with it. I reckon Sunday nights will be the worst though, for a couple of reasons. It will be the night when I just get back to the boarding house after having a weekend at home, sleeping at whatever time i want to, and going online whenever i want to, not to mention eating whenever n whatever i want to.. it will also be the night when everyone is expected to be in their own rooms by 9pm n supposedly lights-out by 9.30? i think.. at least there's an exception to yr 12's but still... i sort of semi-switched the lights off at 10.30pm n even still there i was lying in the darkness wondering what i should be doing for the next 1.5 hrs while i wait for sleep to bestow itself upon me.. thank goodness it didn't take that long though.. talked to gerald for a while, n as soon as he hung up, i fell asleep. which is great seeing that i almost NEVER sleep early. but the bad thing is that i woke up at 6.30am which is so NOT the point of coming to the boarding house. i was supposed to sleep in later than usual..~!! not wake up earlier than usual... *sigh* but anyway, gerald rang me at 6.50 to make sure i was awake, gawd knows why.. n valerie came in at 7.05.. i honestly wonder how i'm gonna get used to this.

My mum says she's oredi missing me.. hmmph.. funny how u only miss someone when they're already gone but whenever they're around for you, all u wanna do is piss them off all the time.. Tell me exactly, WHAT IS THE POINT OF THAT? But anywayz, i'm fine with it. everyone's already asking me if i'm starting to regret my decision.. In a way yes and no.. I suppose right now, I would gladly tell my mum that i'm coming home n i'm willing to put up with her picking me up late etc etc but at the same time i don't want to be defeated by the simple minor fact that i don't have a computer, n i can't do as i will all the time. no house phone to call out whenever i have no credit. study time for 2 hours every single night without any choice even if i have no homework.. so what's making me stay? i have no idea... well we'll still have to see how things go before i retract my decision...