This is terrible. I can't believe they used someone's personal tragic incident as part of a chapel service. Sure, yes it's great if u relli truly sincerely wanna pray for the person... but u can't just use it to fill up the time because u ran out of things to say in chapel. Blardee hell! This annoys me endlessly. I mean, if I was in the situation and it happened to be my dad instead, firstly, i wouldn't want the whole fucking school to know about it. I wanna choose who should know about it - not just any random who happens to be in my year. It's called respecting privacy. Secondly, I wouldn't want the whole fucking world to be talking about it anyway. It's my problem - not theirs. Telling them is just giving them a topic of gossip. Idiots.

Imagine what she'd be like when she finally returns to school. She's been thru enough over the few days and when she gets back, in the midst of recovering, everyone's going to be offering her condolences and asking how she feels. How the heck do you think she'd feel? Losing people who you're very close to, especially if it's family, of course she'd be devastated! Not as if she'd admit it to your face of course. Why should she? I mean, here she is trying to recover n people ask her about it... i reckon that would make her feel a lot worse. Then again, I could be wrong. Somehow this time I'm pretty certain that I'm right. Things are awkward now. I'm waiting for her to come back. Hoping to see that she's alright, but I wouldn't know how to behave around her because there's no way I could possibly understand what she's going thru right now, n I couldn't even begin to pretend that I understand

Having it hit so close to home really made a lot of people think and truly appreciate their close ones, even if it's only for the moment. People begin to worry about their parents not calling them, n some even put the effort in to call their dear ones. I, on the other hand, don't know where I stand. I don't exactly know who my close ones are. Who is my family, anyway? It's too complicated. Here I have been waiting for my dad to call for the past few months but he doesn't. I'm not disappointed. I can sort of understand what Jasmine meant when she said she was expecting HER to be relli cold-hearted when she gets back. I probably would be too. In fact, I already am now. *looks at my sis*

The days are disastrous. I'm not getting enough sleep, I'm not doing enough work and I can't focus in class. There are just so many things to consider and somehow work just isn't one of them right now. Damn, I need to get my life back on track. *sigh*

To my dad or my sis, pls call me ASAP...