1st day and second night around

Ermmphh.. left my phone at my parents' hotel.. Feels really iffy without it around. Shows how addicted I am to it.. Well, not actually - I'm just worried that if Winnie or somebody close msgs me or even calls me then I can't take the call and I wouldn't even know who called. That's the prob. And no one knows my sister's numbers. So I'm deserted for a night. Ah well..

Sis has gone to Dave's place. She's starting to get on my nerves. Everything is about Dave n all these other people. We're supposed to be having a Chinese New Year dinner thing tomorrow, and well, I assumed that it would be a family thing cos we haven't exactly spent a lot of family time together recently, have we? But turns out, she's invited this massive bunch of friends along. So now I feel like the ultimate loser. Cos I have absolutely nothing in common with these people. What am I going to do for the whole evening then? Shut up and eat basically. ARGHHH.. I just can't take it.. Sis told me to invite my friends as well. Yeah, duh, because u dun wanna spend time with me after two years so I should invite my friends to avoid getting bored. Who am I going to invite exactly? There's nobody here yet. Well, Angie, Aun Joe and Desmond are here. If I get desperate then I guess I'll have to invite them. Which is really pathetic. They're not gonna click whatsoever. ARGHHH SHE ALWAYS DOES THIS TO ME.. I hate it so much but I can't say anything cos it makes me feel so alien in the family whenever I make a comment that nobody agrees with. They think I'm just being pesky n childish. *sigh* I guess if wanting to spend time with my family is being childish then... maybe I won't go for the dinner tomorrow? Maybe I should go stay at Aun Joe or Desmond's place for the night. At least I know they'd, well, not appreciate but wouldn't mind my company. I keep getting the feeling that the other three members of my family dislike me being around. They seem to keep brushing me off and it's starting to get on my nerves. Maybe I should disappear for a while? Or maybe even for good. It'll make everyone else happier, won't it? But I guess I better wait till after my uni enrolment. It's on the 9th. Not that far away. Just two days. I just have to hang in there for a while....