I'm the biggest sucker around *hics*

Well, understandably he didn't come. But at least I wasn't stood up. His friend fully set up the meeting oredi. But at the last minute, Aun Joe's girlfriend bluntly refused to let him meet me without her being there.. His friend rang me to give me the news and I just sort of gave up. I mean, wtf can I do, right? Ah well.. Surprisingly, I'm not so hurt about it as I had thought I would be.. I'm actually kinda laughing about it because I can't believe he's so submissive - dun even have the balls to stand to his gf to keep a promise he made to his friend.. yeah.. a man of his word alright... Ahahha.. So that's why I'm not so angry. Because I'm glad I'm not friends with someone llike that. I need my friends to be more loyal n trustworthy cos I depend on them a lot.

Aside from that, I've mostly had my mind occupied between talking to Nick Tee, my mum calling every few minutes and Khai Gene and Ming Li being around the place. So yeah, I haven't actually had a lot of time to think. That's great, cos I dun wanna think about it anymore. Gonna pretend it never happened. I hope I never see him again cos I dun think I'd know what to say to him if I ever had to face him. So embarassing to be put in a situation like that. I hope everyday could be like this. Being so distracted. It'll keep me from feeling down. At least Yen Teng n Chiew Keng are here already. My sis said that being around people about the same age will be better for me. Cos then at least they might not just have sex on their mind or only think about using u.

But at the moment, I'm feeling bad about my mum.. I know she misses me; she's been ringing me everyday since she left Melbourne. But tonight she made it really evident. She called me to ask if I was watching tv.. She said that it's not as nice to watch tv anymore cos nobody watches it with her now. I told her I did have the tv on, told her I was flicking between About A Boy and Legally Blonde and she said, "Okay la, at least I know u're watching tv oso." Wah... that made me feel really bad about leaving her.. As if I personally hurt her. ouch. For me too.. Ahahha.. My poor mother. But what could I do? I really couldn't stay..