Scared s**tless

Yes, that's precisely what I'm feeling at the moment. Leaving this Sunday for Melbourne and I haven't finished packing yet. It's the early hours of Friday morning and I'm having a subtle panic attack (have to use that term lightly now - explain later), not only because I'm not done packing and I still have heaps to go even though I already have 7.5 boxes filled, but also because I'm worried about how things will work out for me. Maybe I'm stressing out too much over nothing, but at this current point in time I'm panicking about EVERYTHING! But most of all, I fear most that Melbourne won't turn out the be the great experience I had thought it out to be. And Gawd knows, I don't want to go thru all that loneliness crap that I had to endure while I was in Perth. So yes, I'm truly terrified of moving forward. But there's nothing for me here either. So where do I belong? Precisely my point - nowhere at the moment. Great. I'm glad we settled that.

Okayz, regarding the panic attack. My lovely friend Jess had a massive panic attack at home recently. She's a very sensitive girl and her emotions run havoc quite easily. Apparently this time they went overboard and she spasmed before going stiff like a board. She's okay now, but going for some therapy sessions with her aunty (who's a psychologist) to get away from all the stress of being around her family esp. her parents. Poor girl. Scary shit. So it turns out she won't make it back in time to see me off. *sigh* oh well. There are more important things at hand right now. She might even postpone uni to July. Which is disappointing.

I should probably take a short nap n continue packing. This needs to be done quick. I wanted to finish by Friday night. Might happen. Might not. Perhaps I'll be calmer by then. Eechh.. so bloody lonely in Perth. Abso-bloddy-lutely friggin no one. Hmmphh.

Btw, just randomly - I watched CLOSER with Liz today. Heck, I love Jude Law. His mighty British accent is to die for. Ahahah.. I want a British boyfriend. *wink* Liam.. hics.. Strange story though. Very confusing. Keep your eyes glued to the screen the whole time cos otherwise u'll get lost in the plot. Regardless, I enjoyed Jude Law. Very much indeed. Although, I did feel a lil sick when I saw a flash of Jude's pubic hair. Eckk..