The building of resentment

I wonder why my heart feels like it's breaking. There's no reason to feel this way. I shouldn't let myself feel this way.


And I'm starting to dislike her. Relli relli dislike her. She's causing so much trouble. Don't see what her issue is now. I want.. to strangle her.


But... i give up. I'm tired of fighting for what i want. Gawd.. if i'm supposed to have my way then it'll come. I'm not gonna push for it.


I'm such a weakling. I hate being weak.


See, Gerald? This is what unhappy sounds like. Not the previous post.


edit:// oh and i'm sick. again. i'd really like my voice back. can't live without it. will post abt fri n sat night sometime soon. not now. those were weird nights.