Jennifer's the biggest idiot on earth

*hics* i think i made the exact same mistake. Muahahah.. IDIOT!! Ah well..

You might trick me once; I won't let you trick me twice

At least I'm aware.. prepare for the worst. I shouldn't be so naive and trusting. I never thought I was.. I always thought that I was smart enough to know these things cos whenever it happens to my friends, I always say,"You honestly believe that crap?" and yet somehow when it's my turn, I turn into some naive, backboneless shit that doesn't know what's right and what's not. Well this time, I think I'm aware. Let people's words flow over me. I don't have to believe what they tell me. Just take it in and let time take its course. Maybe in time, there'll be reason enough for me to believe. Trust - the basis of every relationship, be it friendships or a love relationship. I wonder whether it's actually possible to have a relationship without trust. Maybe we start out without trust and we gradually learn to put trust in others as we go on? ...... surprisingly i dun mind what happened. It doesn't matter, does it? I wouldn't say that I don't care.. I'm in a sort-of neutral zone, I think.

On an absolutely different note, I'm not feeling too happy. I don't know why and I'm finding it so frustrating. At least if I knew what was wrong I could at least try to do something about it.. but in this case.. i'm stuck with feeling like this.. shitty.. BLEAH! Hmmm... maybe I'm just PMSing. Hah. that would be really great.

Oh and my sis turned 21 on the 6th of may. My sis is fun when she's drunk. She was actually happy.. which is quite a change. She's always so unhappy these days and at times I feel really helpless cos I dunno what to do to make her feel better. But I'm glad she sort of enjoyed Next Blue even though I reckon it was the alcohol. It was a fun night ultimately. Too bad it was only the 5 of us who were really dancing all night non-stop. My sis and Mann Chee(her fren) have slow reactions. Mann Chee's alcohol only affected her after we got home.. n my sis's muscles are only starting to ache now. Ahahha.. mine have been aching since I got home that night. Can't climb down stairs properly. So stiff. Heard Tiff had a great time at Castle that night. Apparently she got really wasted. Too bad I couldn't watch.. hehehhehe.. i so wanted to

Randomly> I feel like dropping out of uni. I feel like quitting my job and staying jobless. In other words, I feel like dropping out of life itself. Life itself is a friggin job. I'm disheartened. I wanna quit my job at life. It's too hard. Someone hit the 'pause' button, if only for a while. All I need is a moment to catch my breath and recover. But I have an assignment due at 2pm today so I have to do it or I'll lose 2.5% of my mark. Somehow that figure seems minute and not very important.. But I know I'll regret it if I don't do it. And I need to start on my report soon too - yeah, the one tat's due this thursday. Ouch.