Christmas blues

Nobody love me, please. I'll only hurt you.

*sigh* why do I so understand leh?

But anyways! Merry X'mas! And since I am sadly spending X'mas by my lonesome, I have decided to rent my all time fave romantic comedy, Love Actually. Just to make me feel worse than I already do, I guess. Yesh I'm a sadist. What's new? And to add to my collection, I have The Breakup, Lake House (I think), and Must Love Dogs. Uh huh.. all the sappy love shows while waiting for The Holiday to come out on Boxing Day. Then I can truly be miserable. YAY!

And so Dave's coming tomorrow. I'm scared fuckless but I'm not gonna say anything though. Che said that if it was really that bad then she and Dave can stay at a nearby hotel. But I don't want her to do that seeing as it's only since she's been here that I've even remotely been sleeping. So now I dunno. Will his being here make my sleeping worse? Or will the fact that she's around be enough to make up for it? Sian.. I very stress =/ I hate it here. I hate me *growl*

Love of my life, how could I live without you?
The one in my life, how could I ever leave you?

The answer is, I can't. LOL. Wishing you were here. Know it.