Friday, January 26, 2007
Adel is a very wise and mature person. Hahahaha.. I like ^^
Adelene, Amelia and Jennifer are very the same same. Perhaps I should change my name to something beginning with 'a' too. Then we can be even more same same than we already are.
Hehehehehehehe I'M SO EXCITED!! Lalala..
Random note - Jennifer's phone bill for December. AUD$751.95 =/ WTF MAN!!
i'm not wise and mature meh cheh!
i am the most wise and mature.
HAHAHAHAH
just kiddinggggggg
I AM SUPERWOMAN.
WHERE ARE YOU.
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Oh no crap crap crap I got my test date wrong!! I thought it was on the 24th but its actually on the 29th of Jan. Oh no no no!! MY FLIGHT IS ON THE 29TH! 12.45AM! OH NO!! HOW??? Have to delay flight by one day or at least a couple of hours. Bloody hell so spoiler. Bullshit la. *growl* I'm so angryyyyyyyy
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nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
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Melbourne Melbourne Melbourne HERE I COME~!! AHAHAHAHA I'm so exciteddd.. =) Just a few hours and I'll be there. Ahhh sweet home, sweet love, sweet life. Yesh it's my home now.
AND I HAVE PRESENTS FOR ADELENE ANG, AMELIA KOE, CHONG PEI NI AND SEAN TEH!!
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presentssss! i love presents!!!!
I LOVE PRESENTS TOOOO!!!!!
(actually, i like opening new things the most)
HAHAHHAHA.
THANKEW JENNIFERRRRRRRRRRRRRR
MUUUUAAAAAAAAAWHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
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Well, the good news is.. love songs don't work for me anymore =) I'm not 'so sick of love songs', no, and I still hate that stupid song but the words don't hit me anymore. They're just words now. Nothing more nothing less.
The bad news is.. I'm turning into a sucker for pain. HAHAHAH! Sadist, you stupid little ****. I was referring to myself, btw. Don't anyone else get offended.
Is it weird for me to insist that my boxes be sealed edge to egde so that there are no gaps where the ends meet? Is it strange that I take the prices off the books only to stick them on piece by piece perfectly on top of each other to be neat? Even though, of course, these labels are gonna be thrown out anyway. Shit I'm going crazy. So much words racing thru my thoughts. But I only got this much out. ROARRRRRRR. I feel like a tiger. *growl* hehe I feel like drowning. No no scared of deep water. I feel like suffocating. No no scared of that too. I feel like slitting my wrists. No no scared of pain. WAHHHH SO COWARD~!! SCARED OF EVERYTHING! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA.. not funny oso =.= I told u I was going crazy. Perth does this to u =P
I'm all aloneee.... LalaLAlalaLAlAlalaLA
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Hmmmm. Seems like u r on a rampage session on yr ex. Go for a spa treatment or massage. Chill out session. LOL. No worries while in Melbourne, put some sanity into yr life. Look on the bright side. U still have your adorable puppy by yr side 24-7.
Cheers,
Mike sim
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The Bottom Line
If you come across a snag in your flow today, don't take it as a sign of failure.
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You should be very proud of how you've handled yourself recently, especially since you were being so heavily scrutinized (you didn't know that, did you?). This pride will continue to carry you onward, but you should be on the lookout for a few obstacles along the way. If you come across any snags, do not assume that you've lost all your magic. What you have is real skill, and it isn't going anywhere. You are not a flash in the pan. You are the real deal.
I have no bloody idea what that's supposed to be referring to.
Ugh. Spent my entire day at work doing things blindly. So distracted with my mind on other things. One other thing, actually. Don't add insult to the injury. Don't call me dear. Don't tell me you love me. It's worse than your comment to me yesterday. Biggest insult. *ROAR*
Pity. Spent a huge portion of my life wishing for a love so perfect and just when I thought I'd found, I woke up from the dream. =) But then.. I think I kinda like it this way. Love's not for me. It was nice as a dream, a fantasy. Somehow when it's real and you're experiencing it, it takes the fun out of it. So I shall let it be my illusion; my private fantasy. Though it doesn't mean that I'm stopping anyone from going out there and chasing the love they want. I'm just saying that, me, I'd rather just stand back and watch. It gives me something to hope for. Something to dream about.
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ur nothin better than the other girls i fuk and forget abt
Thank you. For a moment there I thought someone could love me for who I am and help me to grow and become a better me. Lol. How fooled I was by this thing called "love". To think I was so stupid I fell for it all.
So yes, maybe I really am nothing better than the other girls you fuck and forget about. But that's okay, because you can say that if you want. There are still people out there who love me. And despite you saying that to me, I loved you. But right now, I hate you. For abandoning me when I put my faith in you. For hurting me. So please. Leave me alone. Don't tell me how you love me or how you care for me. I don't wanna hear it. It means nothing compared to words like those above.
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The Bottom Line
Transitioning into a healthier, happier you takes the courage to try new things.
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You have one particular habit that, as fun as it is, may be holding you back from moving forward right now. Even if it doesn't seem possible to live your life without it, you should at least give it a try today. You don't have to make huge declarations about whether or not you are going to break a habit -- just give life without it a try for a while. Transitioning into a healthier, happier you takes the courage to take risks.
Ah. I see. I wonder which bad habit this refers to. There are so many. Physical health-wise, yeah i can figure it out. Emotional health.. also can pinpoint. But which one? Not gonna let go of both man. No way. Not at once =)
On a random note, I now have 51 songs on my new pink ipod. 51! Haha record-breaking. My other one has like 30 or so la. I don't dl songs. But the songs I have ar.. all oso emo one. All seem to be love songs too. =/ How come? And I can relate to them all somehow. EeeeEEee.. I have become like THAT. Sappy and lovey-dovey. Eeks. First, the movies. Then the songs. What next?!
That above horoscope was from Friendster, by the way. And speaking of Friendster, as I scrolled thru my messages and testimonials left to me by some of my dearest friends, I have come to realize that I have not quite been the good friend I always prided myself on being. Upset. I'm sorry for not keeping in touch. So many things have happened since I left Perth. Not all of them good. Some of them good. I hate myself for saying that I didn't make the time to try, so I am terribly sorry. Please forgive me. I do still care, as unbelievable as it sounds. I shall be better from now on. In fact, I'm going to reply all those testimonials and messages now. =) Since I have the time and no excuse. I love you.
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Keep up the good work.
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La la la.. trying to fill up my time now that che has gone back to Melbourne. Without me.
NEVERMIND! 8 days till I go back to Melbourne too. 17 days till I FLYYYYYY. KL and me are good best friends. Best friends for long long time. My most faithful friend has awaited me 4 years and I am finally going back! ^^ I'm so excited ROARRRRR. But I hope I haven't made a rash decision in making this trip. What if I go bankrupt during the year? Die ler. So scary the thought. *shrugs* dun wanna think. hmmph!
And guess who's bought many many shoes to make up for the ones that the miserable little doggies destroyed in Melbourne? *smiles* I LOVE! So manyyyy~!! But then.. later overweight how? Mummy said,"Nevermind la. Just pay." Woah. I thought my mummy very kiam when it comes to these kinda things. Well, it's fine with me as long as she's the one paying and not me. =) Can't wait to be back. One more week one more week one more week!
Since I'm currently jobless in my own house now that I have no one to talk to expect the dogs, I have officially scrolled thru 27 blogs today. You know what's really funny? Most of them are really interesting. Now I feel so bad. How come my posts are always so.... depressing? Cos its called silent catastrophe, stupid. So duh. But that's me. Then again, this seems like a pretty un-depressing one, no? I feel okay. Will everyone stop worrying about me, please? Pressure, u know? Lols.
AMELIA KOE!! YOU PASSED YOUR PISSY, MOODY AND SIAN-NESS TO ME! GAHHHHHH~!! But then leh.. mine got a couple of versions. Painful, miserable and sleepless also. I wanna DIE. Cut my freaking tubes. You think if I do that, will it stop coming? Omg omg omg. Well, at least I'll be free of it when I'm on my lil personal holiday. SHIT. My holiday one month means confirm come again while I'm there. wah lao crap.
Oh oh OH! and ameliaaaa... Mitsu very ugly ): He didn't get a hair 'cut'. He got a hair shave. No more liao. 1cm oso dun have. His butt there.. 1mm oso dun have. How? SO UGLY! I think I leave him here la. Dun wan bring back to Melb edi. too ugly to be seen. YECH! But then leh, must admit. Now that all the hair is gone.. Mitsu relli relli got big balls eh =/
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whalao you cut your tubes also no use lorh!! you study bio or you study bio?? ppl cut their tubes to not get pregnant you want to cut your tube to escape womenhood. tsk tsk you terrible.
and btw. you should've just skinned mitsu seriously. i bet he looks like a bald big with extra large dangling balls. SIGH.
HAHAHAH. i'm sure sleepy will feel so handsome. lalallala.
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This is the real goodbye.
Ending with words like:
Sean - 心灰意冷 雲楓看到密我 says (12:37 AM):
r u trying to pick a fight ?
jenn; don't love me; i'll ruin you says (12:38 AM):
....................
jenn; don't love me; i'll ruin you says (12:38 AM):
fuck u la
jenn; don't love me; i'll ruin you says (12:38 AM):
goodbye
jenn; don't love me; i'll ruin you says (12:38 AM):
i dun even want to fight with u
jenn; don't love me; i'll ruin you says (12:38 AM):
i let u win
jenn; don't love me; i'll ruin you says (12:38 AM):
lucky u dun read my blog
jenn; don't love me; i'll ruin you says (12:38 AM):
cos then u'd never know how i really feel
jenn; don't love me; i'll ruin you says (12:38 AM):
thank god
jenn; don't love me; i'll ruin you says (12:38 AM):
get out of my house please
jenn; don't love me; i'll ruin you says (12:39 AM):
i never wanna see u anymore
So bitter it's unbelievable. Yeah.. I'd definitely say its over. And I'm relieved because my burden's been lifted. But yet it still hurts. To know that he never bothered to remember/write down/save the address of this place so he could find out what's on my mind, especially. But he's a guy. I would never expect anything else. Lol. And who am I to mind now? I'm no longer his girlfriend. I've definitely succeeded in pushing them both away. Congrats. That's what I do best when I'm scared or hurt. Push everyone away.
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I wonder why it's always so much easier to pretend that the actions of someone you care about don't affect you that much or at all when you're no longer with that person. Like, it doesn't really matter if he doesn't have time to spend with you, or he doesn't call you or sms you for days. Why? Because, technically, you no longer have the right to demand that from them. So, yes, although it hurts still, it makes life so much better to be able to just brush it off that way. Sounds good, right? But not really, because I can feel me distancing myself from ppl like these. Building walls around me to stop myself from feeling this emotion called hurt. Perhaps it really is better this way. At least I won't feel disappointed or rejected. I'll accept people like these whatever they do, whoever they are.
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Happy Feet ^^. I have happy feet too! Well, no not quite - I have happy heart. HAHA. Lame. No seriously. It's been a good day. I have nothing to whinge about. Can you believe that? I'm actually happy. Lol.
Anyways, I went to the bank today to arrange to have this account keeping fee they've been charging me every month and I was standing outside the bank for a bit when SUDDENLY this man decides to approach me and start talking to me. Mind you, this man would probably be in his late 40s/early 50s. The conversation started off fairly normal what with the whole, "Wow its a warm day, isn't it?" and me politely agreeing. But then it started getting awkward for me because he kept complimenting my beauty, my seemingly bright smile and personality, saying how pretty I was if only a little bit too slim. =.= But anyway, I accepted his compliments and he started asking me questions. LIKE AN INTERVIEW. albeit a friendly one. Questions like where I was studying, what I was studying, where did I work, where do I live, how long I'm here for, DO I HAVE A BOYFRIEND etc etc and when I told him we're kinda on a break, there was the whole, "AHH there's plenty of fish in the sea.. you're only young. there's so much more out there. the most important thing is experience. without experience you have nothing blah blah blah blah".
Ahem. And all this while, there were random comments in between every few statements on how beautiful I was, how lovely my personality was and how bright etc etc etc. Okay.. Jennifer = officially freaked out. And the parting message? "When are you coming back here again? It would be lovely to see you again. You never know which lovely person you're gonna meet around here" Huh? I never met anyone standing outside a bank before but..okay.. And also.. why do you have to be an old man??? I wanna attract people MY AGE! Not THREE TIMES my age. ): Reminded to of the incident at The Church. Bleagh. Not nice. But then again.. what if he was just being friendly? Why am I so freaked out at the possibility that some people have the courage to approach others while I do not? Maybe its the way I was brought up, the whole "Don't speak to strangers" thinking. However, since when has it been a crime to be friendly in public without any reason, excuse, or alcohol involved? Having said that, I am still freaked out and dejected that the only guys I attract are old enough to be my dad or worse.
On another note, I got my blood test results back! And I am iron deficient. Quite severely, I might add. Lol. EEEEeeee I thought I was gonna have to take iron tablets everyday. Was panicking at the thought when the kind doctor asked if I would prefer iron liquid. Oh hell yes please. So I have a prescription for a 3 month supply of iron liquid at 30ml every day. Eugh. Eugh I repeat. Funky tasting shite. 3 months. *faint* I have to bring it to KL/Sg with me. OMG. SIANNNNNN.
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why you running away from meeee. i've been loooooooooooooking for you!!!
hahah faster come online and talk to me!!!
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I'm over it. Finally. All this while I had my doubts about whether I did the right things and whether I made the right choice. Now all my doubts have been erased and I don't know whether I should thank you for that or not.
I've spent all the days since X'mas doubting myself and making up for what I did. I tried all sorts of ways to mend things, to make things better for you, to make things easier for you, to make sure you were okay with the way things are now. You wanted a patch? I felt miserable seeing you so upset. It killed me to watch your life fall apart as I moved on without you. That's why I had my doubts. But for someone who so badly wants to have another go at things, you're definitely showing me that you want it. The sudden lack of communication says it all. I call you every day to make sure that your life is going on as planned. I check to see if you're alive and well every day. I booked my flight the same day as yours to make you happy. To keep you satisfied. To TRY and give us a chance. To stop you from going crazy. But you proved to me that perhaps leaving was the right things to do. If you cannot even be bothered to put in the effort to mend this with me then I'd rather not work on it. You don't know anything about me anymore. You don't know when I'm working and when I'm not. You don't know how I've been. You weren't even the first few to know when my blood test results are coming out. In fact I think you still don't know until now. You don't know how I've been or how close I am to jumping off a bridge. Yet you knew that me going back to Perth would have been the ultimate suicide and you chose NOT TO CARE. There, I said it. So now I'm never going back. You proved to me that I made the right choice. Thank you very much for making things clear for me. Much appreciated.
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and just when I thought I was over it.
Fuck. I hate you so much.
FUCK! I HATE ME EVEN MORE.
FUCKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!! I HATE YOU FOR DOING THIS AND I HATE ME FOR FEELING THAT.
Am I even making sense? No? Good, cos if I did, that'll be a first. I'm off to kill myself before my 4 tubes of blood test results come back on Monday.
I don't wanna know what's wrong with me. Or I pray its something really bad so I wouldn't feel guilty about throwing myself off the roof. =/
I'm kidding. I'm not gonna kill myself. I'm too much of a fucking coward for that.
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Second gen Ipod Nano. Mummy got me the pink one as part of my X'mas present. But you already HAVE an ipod, I hear u say. Yesh I do. I dunno why she bought me this either but she got me one of these speaker thingies for my new ipod too. So I won't complain. So.. now I have two ipods. =/ Does anybody wanna buy my oldschool nano? It's a white one.. and I seldom use ipods. Lol. So it's kinda new still. Besides, I have no songs to put on my ipod.
But wait! Enough of pressies. I need to yell out something to the entire world. Trance clubs in Perth are SOOO FUNNY~!!!!. HAHAHAHAHAHA. Can die laughing. I decided to drag sis and her bf to The Church to celebrate the coming of my pathetic New Year. When I entered, *shock horror* NOBODY INSIDE!! Nevermind. After it hit midnight, only did actual trance music begin. Yay, go Tricky Nation! But then, NOBODY SHUFFLE! How??? So stupid Jennifer feels like complete idiot because she seems to be the only one doing it. Jennifer looks around. Wah, all girls wearing high heels. Jennifer looks down. Aiks. Wearing Converse shoes. Jennifer feels so unglam all of a sudden. Cannot take it edi. Go bar and drink. Drink at trance club wei. RARRRRR angryyy. Me being lousy drinker that I am.. sleepy after 3 drinks. So comes nearly 2am. Che.. I sleepy already. So at 2am on the 1st of January 2007, I go home and SLEEP!! Nice New Year's celebration, no? And btw I got picked up by an old man with a glow stick and a longer ponytail than mine. *boo hoo* I feel so unflattering. This the kinda guy I pick up, huh? EEEEEeeee DON'T HOLD MY HAND LAAAA. YUCKS! But thank you for the glow stick and leaving me alone after I finally took it. Bleah.
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Eeeeee i dunno why I feel so annoyed. Seems so childish but yesh, I'm fucking annoyed. OOOOOHHH. YOU FUCKING LOSER. I hate him even more so now. Lol. YAY good for me. Geez..
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